I’m Still Standing!

02.21.2012

Wow. This has been the longest break between blog posts I’ve had in the history of this blog. Should be an indication of how crazy life is right now. Just lots of things going on and no time to update. Things should calm down soon. My last day in the office was Friday, and since then, I’ve thrown myself into overhauling my home office. It’s been a crazy amount of work, and I’m someone who can’t stop something and admit defeat. Throughout buckets of paint, sanding furniture, stenciling, and spray painting half of my office furniture, I’ve worn myself out. No rest or relaxation, just paint fumes and headaches. Here is my perfectly imperfect new

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Making Leaps

02.07.2012

Warning: Ramblings ahead Last week, I lept (um, hobbled) out of my cast into a boot. One more little step so I can get my health back on track. But what about the big picture? My anxiety, depression, stress, and insomnia are each issues in themselves, but when combined together make up for a health-killer. These aren’t issues solved by pills or time – they have to be fixed by lifestyle. For those who don’t know, I work. I love working and pushing and trying to do my best. I’m an overachiever, to the point of campaigning to be MBA class president and winning – I thought it would be perfect for my resume. I

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Upgrade

02.05.2012

This past week, I got an upgrade: Hooray for no more purple cast! I’m now in another walking boot, and was fitted for custom insoles for shoes. I’ve got 12 weeks of physical therapy twice a week ahead of me. I’m still in pain, but hope that with my new custom insoles (which I will wear inside my boot) and therapy that it will start to feel like it’s healing. Not sure if I was more excited to put on socks (cold toes), shave my leg, or stop showering with a trash bag around one leg. It’s a tossup! Also great news? I can now swim for physical activity! Y’all know I love swimming. Of

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Darkness

01.30.2012

The past couple of weeks, I’ve dealt with a black cloud following me around. I’ve questioned myself many times, and for some reason can’t pick myself up from the bootstraps as I normally do. I don’t say this to cause any alarm – I say it to show that this is normal. Source: imgfave.com via Emily on Pinterest   Things with the cast have gotten me down. I’m tired of hobbling and showering with a trash bag and clunking around. I’ve also done a really poor job with stress management and sleep these past few weeks, so I’m in re-evaluation mode to see how I can better manage. I’m meeting with my doctor regularly to

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Laughing at Yourself

01.25.2012

I know I’m generally a very *rah-rah* person on this blog. There is something about taking all of the jumbled, over-analytical thoughts from my mind and dissecting them into something that makes sense. Like many of you, I am trying to find meaning in the journey – success or failure. How can we learn to do better? How can we improve? How can we motivate ourselves? How do we learn from our mistakes so we don’t make them again? Whether fitness-related or not, trying to reach goals is hard. You are reaching for something that you obviously want very badly, but there isn’t always a clear-cut way on how to get it. Even when you

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Plus Size Fitness Writer & Brand Representative

01.24.2012

There are things that I used to regard as impossible. My mind, like many of yours, has an awful tendency to insert nasty seeds of negativity when it dared to dream. Slowly but surely, however, doubts are subsiding as I recognize that I have succeeded at many things in the past, and I am succeeding at things in the present. Being a morbidly obese 450+ pound twenty-something is nothing I would wish on my worst enemy. Yet somehow I allowed my body to get to that nightmare after years of self-doubt created an environment so foggy I didn’t know how to escape. Having this blog as an outlet to hammer out my thoughts is one

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Sunday Ramblings

01.22.2012

Blah. Another weekend down the drain and I feel even more behind than I did when the weekend started! I’m one of those people who has a lot of ideas that come up through the week, and then on the weekend rush to try to figure out how do to them. This week, I had all sorts of things I wanted to write, and ended up with very little of it done. So is life! There is one thing in particular that I wrote on the ENELL blog that I wanted to share here, because it’s a question I’ve thought about often, and think it’s a great self-reflection exercise: What would you do if you

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Beauty Resolutions: More than Skin Deep

01.17.2012

Thanks to Walgreens for underwriting this post. I was paid as a member of the Clever Girls Collective, but the content is all mine. Visit http://www.discoverbeautywithin.com/. Sleep has been a huge focus of mine the past month as I try to solve my insomnia, sleep apnea, and other issues going on with this wacky body of mine. Last week, I did a horrible job of getting enough rest, and this morning feel like a ton of bricks has fallen on my head. Not only that, but yesterday I noticed that my skin was really oily and this morning, I have broken out all over my face. Talk about  a self-esteem booster! While beauty may seem

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