About Skinny Emmie

First off, things that Skinny Emmie is NOT:

• Skinny Emmie is NOT thin- not by a mile. Realize this might be confusing to some. Keep reading, and watch the videos below.
• Skinny Emmie is NOT a fat advocate, nor is she ANTI-fat advocacy. Skinny Emmie is simply someone writing about her own experiences, not trying to push any agenda. Those who do push agendas on their own though, are fine with Skinny Emmie. Except for MeMe Roth. She can kiss my big fat ass.
• Skinny Emmie is NOT an expert on diet or exercise.
• Skinny Emmie is NOT a pushover. Any harassing comments will be deleted, because Skinny Emmie is about positivity.

Skinny Emmie’s definition of skinny:

Skinny is being happy in your own skin. Growing up, fat girls want to be skinny. Hell, skinny girls wanted to be skinnier. The Skinny Emmie behind this blog is the person who always thought “if I were skinny, I could do X” or “if I were skinny, people would like me.” I’m Emily (aka Emmie, duh), and I’m ready for a change. Yes, I’m fat. Yes, I’m very fat. Would I like to be less fat? Yes. This is why some fat acceptance people won’t like what I’m writing about, because this blog is about my journey to find my “Skinny Emmie:” that person inside of me who feels healthy and great and doesn’t let external appearences slow her down.  Part of this journey for me is weight loss, but only as a result of getting more in shape- not solely for vanity purposes.

BUT WAIT, DON’T LEAVE YET MEMBERS OF THE FATOSPHERE!

I started this journey very large. Size 32 large. This means I was almost too big to shop at the super plus size stores, forget regular plus size stores. This means that I was very, very easily winded by half a flight of stairs, and that my ass didn’t (and still doesn’t) fit a lot of places. It means that my feet and legs were (and sometimes still are) are swollen a lot because of poor circulation. It takes so much effort to fight fat stereotypes that I had become one- lazy. I’d become beaten down by societal pressures that made me feel like I’m not worthy of a full and meaningful life. I’m not happy with this “Fat Emmie” attitude. Skinny Emmie is my rebellion.

What the goal of this blog is: finding my Skinny Emmie, YES, encompasses an aspect of getting healthy. But you know what? I have never been under 200 pounds since I was 13.  I don’t really know what “Skinny” means for me, but I’m trying to figure it out.

Becoming “Skinny Emmie” is about becoming healthy and happy. That’s it. If it means I’m 275 pounds, so be it- that will be my Skinny. If it means I’m 200 pounds, so be it. This is my project in feeling physically better, and healing myself emotionally from the invisible scars that I’ve accumulated over the years. Fat Emmie doesn’t even have to be Fat. If I get to 160 pounds and still have the same emotional baggage and outlook on life, I AM STILL FAT.

Make sense? If not, re-read.

I try hard to not let fat define me, but that can be hard sometimes. I must remind myself that I am an accomplished twenty-something, wife, dog mommy, professional MBA who was president of her class. I love my friends, pretty things, fashion, poker, traveling and my Blackberry Storm. Some would say I’m a reality TV addict, and I would probably agree. Fat Emmie is hurting my loves though, and I will write about that.

Skinny Emmie is who I’m trying to be, and hopefully by now, you realize that Skinny Emmie is in fact, not skinny.

And before you leave, PLEASE WATCH THESE JOY NASH FAT RANTS! She embodies my version of Skinny.