Crapballs

December 21, 2011

I had an emotionally raw post that I was going to put up tonight. It was about being frustrated and worried and overanalyzing everything as I normally do, both in my head and here on this blog. Reading it just now after the events of today means I’m shelving that for now as these are new things that will need processing.

If you’ve read this blog for a while, you have heard me complain about my ankle. In March, I had pain in my left foot and ankle training for the half-marathon. I sought out help from a podiatrist, who put me in some insoles and told me to rest up. Diagnosis: Overuse.

Fast forward 4 months: the pain was markedly better post-half marathon, so I figured it was healed. The more I was active though, the more it started hurting again. I make an appointment for an orthopaedic surgeon I saw when I had knee issues at 400+ pounds. We did x-rays and MRIs and I was put in the boot for 6 weeks. Boot helped and I felt much better after.

Fast forward to 2 weeks ago: the pain in my ankle is getting worse again, and this time to the point it hurt to just walk. I put the boot back on for several days, but no relief. Made a follow up appointment with the orthopaedic surgeon and he wrote me a prescription for custom orthotic insoles and shoes after seeing the flats I was wearing with my work outfit. He said I had to get better shoes and sent me to a fancy shoe guy. He said to wear the shoes for 3 months, and if it was still bad, he would have to refer me to a foot and ankle specialist to consider surgery.

I had to cancel my appointment with fancy shoe guy due to a conflict, and after I did so, started thinking. I’m only in my work shoes for going from my car to my office (about 50 steps), and from my office to the bathroom (about 20 steps). How could that really make my ankle hurt so bad from poor support? Something wasn’t right, and I really couldn’t bear the thought of 3 more months of waiting and hoping… why not go ahead and see a specialist and get a 2nd opinion?

Fast forward to this morning at 8:20 when I am getting more x-rays and trying to stand on my tip toes (impossible on inflamed foot). The specialist explains that she and first doctor have come to similar conclusions, but she advised treating it differently due to the severity of my problem (posterior tibial tendon dysfunction where my tendon can’t support my arch and is flattening my foot – phase 2). She explained that I needed a cast. “Like, a cast-cast?” I asked. She said “yep.” She went on to tell me that after 6 weeks in the cast, I will need 6 weeks in another immobilizing boot, and then physical therapy and prescription orthotic shoes.

This is what I felt like:

I had jeans on and they said they wouldn’t be able to fit over the cast if they put it on then. I didn’t want to walk out of the doctors office wearing a pair of paper shorts, so I returned in the afternoon with a skirt on to get my cast on. At least I got to pick a color…

the boot is for helping me walk

I’m glad I have an answer and an aggressive treatment plan for solving the problem. I’m glad I’m able to walk on my foot. It’s not ideal, but better than armpit pain from crutches. Still, I’m really, really frustrated.

not so happy camper

Count this among another set up gut-checks I’ve had about my health this year. Thankfully, I’m still standing (literally) and it can only go up from here.

Now… who wants to come over and help bedazzle my cast?

Thanks for listening. xo

  • Laurel

    Good for you for aggressively seeking treatment. I know how frustrating it is to be sidelined by something like that, but once you find the way to control it/heal it/strengthen it, you’ll be that much better off in the new year. And man I hate those paper shorts. The paper halter top isn’t much better.

  • http://carolinecalcote.com/ Caroline Calcote

    Ah girlfriend, you are doing what you gotta do. I’m bringing some sparkles to Lexington for that cast!

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  • http://twitter.com/LisaEirene Lisa Eirene

    I’ve been where you are, honey! I had surgery on my ankle about 7 years ago. Too many ankle sprains had torn my ligament. It hurt to walk or stand, part of that was also being 100 pounds overweight. The surgery was excruciating but worth it. I was in the same cast you are in for two months, then an aircast for a month, then a brace for like 6 months. It was a year of rehab too. There’s nothing more frustrating than being in pain!

  • http://www.tryingtotri.com Kris

    I’m so sorry about your ankle! I injured mine through over training this year too, it is SO frustrating. :( Hope the cast works.

  • Jackie

    Silver Sharpie would look great on that! Sorry you have to wear the cast, but glad you have an aggressive treatment.

  • http://musingsofmaia.blogspot.com/ Maia

    Man, that sucks.  But look at the bright side, at least its on the mend and you bypassed the extra step.  I can only imagine how frustrated you must be.  It can only get better!!!

    • http://www.skinnyemmie.com Emily Sandford

      thanks Maia xo

  • KymberlyFunFit

    Well crapballs is right! Do you like swimming by any lucky chance? Let the bedazzling begin!

    • http://www.skinnyemmie.com Emily Sandford

      I do love swimming. I just need to figure out how to not get the cast wet. I got something the doctor suggested that vacuum seals the cast in a silicone sheath, but it’s really tight (thanks big thighs!) and isn’t staying put. Might have to pass on the swimming – we’ll see! 

  • NinaApple

    Ugh … this is not a happy post at all … Mainly because I have some weird pain in my ankle right now!  (Basically it’s on the inside of my left ankle, sort of where it makes a ball over the foot!)  It feels like a bad bruise and sometimes worse.  I am going to the specialist on the 5th to have it looked at!  So I may be casting it with you this winter!  (What were some of your symptoms?)  I started doing run/walks, so I am not sure if I put too much on it too fast … which further makes me wonder how biggest loser contestants don’t leave all sorts of messed up! (Pushing injuries etc.)  Anyway, hope you feel better!!!  I totally get the moving forward and two steps back thing with health … I really had less doctor’s visits before I started getting healthy … but then the ones that not getting healthy were leading too would have probably been much worse in the end! 

    Thinking happy thoughts your way!!!

    XOXO,
    Nina

    • http://www.skinnyemmie.com Emily Sandford

      the pain I’ve had is localized on the inside of my ankle. It’s swollen and looks sort of bruised, but isn’t. There are different severities of this, so hopefully if you have the same thing, you’ve caught it early enough to get a less severe treatment. They can do injections, boots, and rest and it all helps many people. 

  • annabreedlove

    Hang in there Emmie!  I broke my right ankle and my left kneecap 2 years ago, and I remember how tough it is to get through.  I hated being kept from using my feet and legs to exercise and I got so tired of sitting!  It was a rather long recovery, but I was so thankful once I could walk again that I didn’t even care.  Now every time I take a step normally, I am so thankful!  As frustrating as this is now, you will get through it!  And when it is all over, you will be thankful for each step, you will feel empowered by how your body can heal itself, and you will have a new sense of compassion for all people with foot and leg injuries.  I hope that offers you at least a little encouragement!  

    P.S. I love the color you picked for your cast! :)

    • http://www.skinnyemmie.com Emily Sandford

      oh my gosh, that sounds awful. I’m so glad to hear you’re better now – thank you for the encouragement!

  • MizFit

    oh emmie. it’s all different yet I entirely get this post and am so glad to see everyone rallying around you.
    whine away.
    vent
    have a pity soire.
    IMO thats so needed to move on, move through and hang on.
    xo

    • http://www.skinnyemmie.com Emily Sandford

      thank you so much – I don’t know what I’d do without this community. Talk about helping you get out of a rut!

  • Gardengirlkp

    Bummer. Hang in there and hope you heal fast.

    • http://www.skinnyemmie.com Emily Sandford

      thank you

  • Angie

    ARRGH!!  You made me think back to three years ago when I’d finally had some serious success with an organic diet / regular exercise routine and then herniated a big freakin’ disc in my neck for no apparent reason.  It’s hard to be patient when you’re motivated and have something going that works . . . then can’t so it.  Hang in there, girl, and set some different goals for while you heal.  

    • http://www.skinnyemmie.com Emily Sandford

      yikes – a herniated disc sounds awful. thanks for the encouragement

  • Jen Cywinski

    Good heavens, girl! At least you’re seeing the positive side and it is a pretty color. Hang in there! At least they don’t have to amputate your foot or anything :D

    • http://www.skinnyemmie.com Emily Sandford

      well yes, I’m glad I still have my foot! :)

  • Dyfedgirl

    I understand a lot of things you’re going through at the moment, had a fall a few months ago and been suffering from major pain and got two doctors telling me different things!! I’m surprised I’ve managed to keep my weight the same throughout this time, as I was suffering with something else before this. Being positive is the why to go, I’ve only got 35lbs to reach my goal of 196lbs and next year I’m reaching that goal:-)

    I think if you can get through some major things happening in your life, whether it be illness or stress, without sticking your head in the food bucket, you’ve made a major breakthrough with your food issues, well done:-)

    • http://www.skinnyemmie.com Emily Sandford

      oh goodness, I hope your pain is getting better. We’ll get there!!

  • LHA

    Emmie, you have had a tough year!  I am so sorry about the ankle, and I know you must feel like it is just impossible to move forward when you keep getting knocked down in one way or another.  Here’s wishing you the speediest recovery possible.  Walking, crawling, limping……however you get around you are still a real inspiration!

    • http://www.skinnyemmie.com Emily Sandford

      Thank you so much for your kind words. Lifted my spirits!

  • Lisa

    Emily, my daughter had a similar cast and we totally bedazzled the boot.  It was awesome. Best wishes to you.  Taking a bath is a joy 8-)

    • http://www.skinnyemmie.com Emily Sandford

      I just got this rubber thing to put over the cast – I hope I can figure it out and not get the cast wet. That’s one of my biggest annoyances right now!

  • kittykatz

    Oh that really sucks! I have posterior tibial tendonitis, & I’ve had problems with it since April. I hope it gets fixed up as quickly as possible for you, so you can keep moving on with your journey.

    • http://www.skinnyemmie.com Emily Sandford

      Are you finding any relief over time?

      • kittykatz

        Not really. I’m going back to the specialist in Jan.

  • Jody – fit at 54

    I think we would all rant & whine under these conditions! Me, I would not be a pretty site, in fact I can’t even write here what would come out of my mouth!

    HUGE HUGS!!!! Hoping it heals faster than they said!

    • http://www.skinnyemmie.com Emily Sandford

      thanks Jody!

  • Patty

    Emmie I am curious…What surgery did you have on your knee?I only ask because I too have had knee surgery and am nervous to start exercising…Good luck with the boot-I bedazzled my crutches after sugery and really did make me happier with needing to have them!

    • http://www.skinnyemmie.com Emily Sandford

      I didn’t have knee surgery – I had synthetic synovial fluid injections for my crunchy knees :) Start out slow with your exercise (maybe walking or water jogging?), and just monitor how your knee feels. And follow your doctors advice – they’re smarter than me ;)

  • Bella Capri

    I am so glad that you didn’t wait to talk to the specialist.  I think sometimes doctors forget that their wait-and-see attitudes sometimes cause more harm than good.  Listening to your gut instinct was the right thing to do.

    • http://www.skinnyemmie.com Emily Sandford

      thank you xo

  • http://twitter.com/Schmiet Diet Schmiet

    How frustrating! I hope you can continue an exercise program while you are healing… exercise bike etc I assume (hope?!).

    Glad you are opting for the more aggressive treatment rather than delay further!
    Deb

  • Anonymous

    If I were there, we’d break out the puffy paint. :)

    Seriously, though. It’s so much more important to make sure you are healthy enough to continue your journey. So while I know it’s a bummer, this too shall pass (you’re welcome for the cliche). What exercise can you do while in it though?

  • JimPurdy.blogspot.com

    I’ve had podiatrists come up with all kinds of expensive and uncomfortable boots and shoes and other torture devices that made things much worse than before. In some cases, it took me only a few hours to throw away the costly shoes from h*ll.

    After a lot of self-experimentation, I went online to Amazon and ordered some very simple and cheap post-operative Darco sandals that work great for me, even though the doctors go crazy every time they see what I wear. I’m keeping my comfortable sandals, and ignoring the doctors.

    Best wishes to you, and I hope you have a great 2012.

  • Julie

    Oh goodness. I am so sorry. But in the same breath, so thankful to be reading something that will help me at my next doctors appointment.
    I haven’t been able to move toes on my right foot and have been in severe pain. Got orthotics and am not seeing improvement. It’s scary. And being larger, the fear of being ignored and told to “just lose weight”.

  • http://twitter.com/nycpatty Patty

    Oh sweetie! I am so sorry that you had to get a cast. :( The bright side is that at least you have a solid treatment plan. It was definitely the right thing to do. Hope you are doing better as far as pain and you were able to enjoy Christimas! Sending lots of love :)

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