A Rambling Vlog

October 10, 2010

Last night, I felt like I had so much to say, so I turned on my camera and just started talking. Most of it is rambling, but I wanted to post it anyway to show people that this whole weight loss/getting healthy process is SO MENTAL. Truly. I have battled emotional tug-o-war’s in my mind the past few weeks as I try to make myself happy without seeing a number on a scale.  For me, the act of seeing a lower number on the scale is validation for the work I am putting into this journey, however, it’s gotten to a point where it controls my emotions, as I wrote about before.

So what happens when you remove that piece of metal that tells you what you weigh? How do your day-to-day actions change? How do you FEEL about yourself as you make your healthy living choices? For me, I have felt a little lost these scale-free weeks, and this is definitely something I want to fix.

The hardest part of this journey so far for me has been these emotional roller coasters. Exercise and eating well? That’s the easy part!

  • http://gettinghealthy-myblog.blogspot.com/ Debbie

    Thanks for being so transparent, honest and open about what you are going through. I second your statement that this whole weight loss/getting healthy process is SO MENTAL. We are definitely fighting an emotional and mental battle as well as a physical one.
    Congratulations on pushing through and finishing your 5k!

  • Maddy Stimpson

    well at the moment i am making bad decisions, I am struggling to stick to my diet plan, because when i am not at school and structured, i cheat!
    you are really inspiring and i hope it goes well at the weigh in!- and your face does look quite slim :) certainly not 300 something pounds!

  • Maia

    I’m absolutely 100% right along there with you. I finally had to have my roommate hide my scale because I was obsessively weighing myself and it was starting to have a HUGE toll on my emotions! I still don’t know if I can go a full month between weigh ins, but maybe I’ll get to that point eventually! (I hope!) Baby steps I guess.

  • Jackie

    I have toyed with the idea of weighing once a month but I’m waiting to see how your experience is with it first. And I can relate to what you are saying about a timeline of losing weight. This is the first time I’ve looked at it as eating healthier and losing weight rather than all about losing weight. Therefore I don’t have a set time in my life or date to lose what I need to. And that has taken a lot of pressure off too. Just take it a day at a time and enjoy how much better I feel :) Best wishes tomorrow!

  • BAH

    I thought your ramble was great and thanks for sharing. I don’t know of anyone myself included who is on a weight loss journey who doesn’t feel like a slave to the scale and defintely the mental math was something I would be doing also. Keep up the great work!!! :-)

  • http://rosieisaloser.blogspot.com/ Rosie

    I am addicted to my scale. I check it every morning. I don’t know how you do it! It is so true what you say about the emotional roller coaster that the dang scale puts you through, so I really should try it your way. You are amazing, keep it up!

  • Adele

    Emmie you are so adorable and seem like such a sweet person – I hate that you’re going through such an emotional time right now. I love reading your blog and am really inspired by how dedicated you are to this process. I wish you nothing but happiness and success. :)

  • http://twitter.com/msgigglepuss MsGigglepuss

    I’m a bit addicted to my scale…going a whole month would be tough for me! I just want to know if I’m making progress numerically…charting…analyzing patterns…all that geek stuff. But, it really does play with my emotions. If it doesn’t show my effort, I get darn angry! I might try limiting the scale to a once weekly visitor.

  • http://studentonahealthcraze.blogspot.com Ali

    Congratulations on making it through the month! I haven’t been on the scale for 3 weeks (due to moving away and not bringing a scale with me/being too much of a cheapskate to buy a new one) and it is, in one way, freeing, but I am desperate to find out how much I weigh! That said, the second I do find out, I’ll probably want to forget again… Oh, the lives of the dieting masses!

  • http://www.unveilingthediva.blogspot.com/ Stephnms

    I’m SO with you on the scale issue. I finally had my husband hide mine from me, so I would quit obssessing over it. Thank you for your honest ‘rambling’, Emmie. Sending a ton of *HUGS* your way.

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  • http://twitter.com/LisaEirene Lisa Eirene

    Dealing with the emotional part is SOOO important and it’s a GOOD thing you’re doing it now! When I was losing my weight I didn’t deal with any of the emotional aspects. I was so super focused on that number on the scale. It wasn’t until I surpassed goal weight and then struggled with “What now?” that I started to address the emotional aspects of it.

  • fuzzilla

    Reading weight loss blogs like yours is what keeps me inspired and plugged into the mental part of weight loss. I read the blogs of people who’ve lost over 100 pounds and kept it off and the main thing I get is to appreciate the perspective of how long it takes. My favorite quotes to stop the scale obsessing are “who cares how long it takes, the time’s gonna pass either way” and “if you’re doing all the right things, the weight WILL come off, you just can’t know exactly when it’s gonna show up on the scale. So just focus on what you CAN control and don’t worry about the rest.”

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