My Body Reminds Me

July 28, 2010

* I wrote this on my phone last night when I couldn’t get to sleep. Also, feet/leg picture in the post. If you’re weirded out by feet, don’t look! I’m so ready to go home tomorrow *

When I’m in the gym, there are times where I feel like I’m just like everyone else. I can move. My body is healthy. My heart responds properly to any stimulus I give it. It feels good.

Then, there are days like today. Those where, after spending most of my day on my feet and drinking very little water, I feel the severity to which my body still has to handle my weight.

My feet and legs have an indescribable ache. My feet throb. My legs are so swollen that I can’t see my ankles. I feel like someone pumped 10 pounds of saline in my legs, which just sits there, expanding underneath my skins surface. It’s times like these that I realize how hard carrying this weight is on my body.

Can my heart handle it right now? Thankfully, yes. But what about the rest of me? Apparently not. The weight is just too much for my legs and lymph system to handle when pushed outside of its regular routine. Even sitting at my desk job when I’m not traveling is tough because of the inactivity. I look forward to going home and propping my feet up for some relief.

Yes, I’ve had tests. Many tests. No, nothing is wrong with me other than my weight-induced pitting edema. I’m on a water pill. Yes I took it today. But still, this body was pushed, and now my years of body neglect are making themselves felt as I head to sleep with prayers for relief when I awake.

Tagged as: reality check

  • http://lessofmimi.wordpress.com Melissa Fritcher

    Lots of water with lemon juice. HUGS!!!

  • http://lessofmimi.wordpress.com Melissa Fritcher

    Lots of water with lemon juice. HUGS!!!

  • http://lessofmimi.wordpress.com Melissa Fritcher

    Lots of water with lemon juice. HUGS!!!

  • http://lessofmimi.wordpress.com Melissa Fritcher

    Lots of water with lemon juice. HUGS!!!

  • http://colormeuntypical.blogspot.com Untypically Jia

    My ankles swell up really badly too. Sometimes I can't even attend Church because the chairs cut off the circulation in my legs and my shoes get so tight on my feet. The summer is the absolute worst. You are soo not alone with that one.

  • http://bedeliciouslyhealthy.blogpsot.com Brittany

    I'm sorry
    xoxo

  • http://www.kendrathroughthelookingglass.com Kendra

    I've had that some days. It's really annoying how many problems pop up in the process of weight loss, isn't it? It's like, hey, I'm taking care of this, shouldn't this have happened before I was putting in an effort?

  • Noel Depp

    I hope you are feeling better today!

  • Joie

    Totally feel your pain on this. It's a huge reminder (no pun intended) as to why our bodies deserve us treating them better.
    I also have Plantar Fascitis (sp?). When I have lost some weight, it has gotten better. But now at my largest, I am not doing my feet any favors.
    I very much look forward to the time when my feet feel awesome again!

  • http://twitter.com/Gainedweight Dee Dieter

    I feel for you. My daughter gets the same thing.

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  • http://twitter.com/LisaEirene Lisa Eirene

    That looks really painful! Do you have compression socks? I absolutely LOVE them and they helped me a lot with that problem.

  • http://www.skinnyemmie.com skinnyemmie

    I don't, but I for sure am going to look into them!

  • debra

    I have been under stress lately with family issues – my nephew has seizure disorder and I spent night after night helping my sister when he had to do testing for two weeks in the hospital. My legs swelled up as yours did and I got a prescription for a new blood pressure med. I weigh 255. I want to look at least 80 pounds. I like being heavy – I hate my leg issues and blood pressure problems. We have to think of our health but, people have to understand in me that I spent 48 years eating a bit more than most but, I am not lazy or stupid or unwilling to loose weight…my body stays at the weight it wants to.
    I have only lost weight on Atkin's type programs. This helps the Adema. I will start on this with my sister on Thursday…which is our start day on our team health program. I wish you luck…you are a very beautiful person who looks great either way…it is the leg problem that needs solved for you and I. Good luck!

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  • Eva Taylor

    I have the same issue with edema. It started one day (when I was about 25) and has been an issue ever since. They put me on blood pressure meds, told me to drink more water, exercise, etc. but not much helps. Big bummer because I love strappy sandals!

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